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(this is not my artwork. it's from here.)

just posted it because it really fits :(

1 januari

apa sih istimewanya taun baru?

apa bedanya 1 januari dengan hari-hari lain?

kenapa musti ada resolusi taun baru?? untuk start over?

do better?

knp musti nunggu taun baru untuk membuat janji supaya diri sendiri menjadi lebih baik, apa bedanya janji "mulai 1 januari saya akan..." sama "mulai 13 maret saya akan...." atau "mulai 27 september saya akan..."

dan yang paling tidak saya mengerti,

kenapa harus dirayakan?

ketika bumi ini tambah tua, umur bertambah, countdown menuju hari akhir makin berkurang, orang-orang malah bergembira, pesta disana-sini.

lalu, kenapa musti pada memberi ucapan "selamat tahun baru", apa maknanya?

yaa, mungkin doa-nya: "semoga makin baik dari sebelomnya... semoga bla-bla....", asal emang beneran ngedoain, bukan sekedar basa-basi sms atau omongan :P

walaupun (again), ngga perlu nunggu tahun baru untuk saling mendoakan agar lebih baik dari sebelomnya ;)

sasha fierce

this is the (public figure) woman i adore the most, BEYONCE!! and of course this is dedicated to her. walaupun ngga kenal. hahaaaa...

heuheu belagu ya di watermark-in segala, abiskalo bukan kita sendiri yg PD sama karya kita, siapa dong?? ;) hihi

eniwey, kenapa sy suka BANGET sama dia? sy juga gatau sebenernya.. suka aja. yg pasti (image dia buat sy) adalah sesosok wanita yg independen, cantik, mandiri, sehat, dan baik. (tau darimana??) tau aja. haha... pokonya LOVE HER A WHOLE LOT!!!!

The Truth that Lies Inside

beautiful and somehow fragile song.

tentang konflik batin yang tidak besar, tp membebani;

yg sy yakin banyak yg mengalami :)

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THE TRUTH THAT LIES INSIDE
[ by Dawud Wharnsby Ali ]

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You smile in the two way mirror of my eyes.
I put on my faith like I wear a disguise.

You can’t see my soul, see the life that I live.
But I show you the mask of the best I can give.

I’ve hid here, afraid like a child,

behind the truth of my thoughts that clutter my mind.

What if you knew, about all that I do?
The things that I think...

the “me” that is true?

Would you call me a hypocrite? Call me a liar?

Would you curse out my name?

Would you damn me to fire?

Would you know what to say?

...Or would you just walk away,

afraid the “me” I’ve tried to hide
would too closely resemble the truth of you that lies inside?

I’ve been looking for answers since becoming adult,
not looking for dogma to live like a cult.

I've been looking to live, I've been living to find,
freedom from cages that limit my mind.

Will I scare you? Upset you? Frustrate you? Irrate you?

Challenge your lifestyle or weaken your trust?

Or will you see my effort? My passion? Sincerity?

Will you see just a little of yourself in me?

Will you take off your mask,

so we can both be free?

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note: the song's also known as "will you hate me?"